Tuesday, March 29, 2011

We go together.

No matter what we do or where we are we always seem to find the best times together. Every time i am with you  it's just the best time ever!


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Thursday, March 24, 2011

The bag.

It was in a tiny little bag that looks to be like tea. It was all chopped up and alomst kinda pathetic and green and had a funny kronic smell to it. You had already done two of them ha you funny lookiong thing. It looked like you couldnt care a less what was happing in the world almost like you were in your own little world with wonder and amaze. It was an almost beautiful thing as are you. The whisper I asked you.... the first time and last ive done it. Im glad it was with you. I felt safe and secure with you, it was funny and everything in the world that you had been expericening while just taken the in that bag the tiny bag had so much amaze in it. and made everything amazing and everyone looked so beautiful and fun to be around and there was not one worry in the world. It was a new demention to be in.Thank you for the new world.


The time we have been apart as a couple have been the worst time of my life, i have to sleep in another room because im so used to you being here, why did you have to leave me, i know its only been so short of time but it hurts so bad i just want you back, if you did you would never ever have to think if you want me as ill be the best you've ever seen you just wait until you take me back then you'll see, there is no one else in this world for me but you this is the worst thing for me, we did things with each other, things we have never done before, if you come back to me i want to make you life heaven and happier than when you first met me, i will make sure you get time with your friends yes i will but all you need to know is we are both stronger if we are together, oh if you'll only see......" I will never ever do this to you ever again ill love you untill the end of time""


left with guilt and anger. leaving you astray was by far the worst thing i could have done to you. especially when you just wanted a weekend away from him and a weekend with me. i've told you for so long that you've never made time for me, and finally when you do, i turn my back and do the same thing. i'm sorry i left you, and i'm sorry that i knew what i was doing was wrong. i've blown all chances with your time. and i understand. i'm going to miss you. in fact, i haven't stopped. "Im thanking you for knowing what you have done just please don't do that to me ever again!"

Simple as that

Going threw peoples blogs reading them, about love about hate about lieing about almost everyting. Then I came across yours... You said you would alwasy defend your friends no matter what becasue thats who you were like to defend your friends. Now that I think of it I wish you were all mates again. I no you enjoyed being around them and how they all came over and all we guys did was play cod I could see that you were so happy with them all. It was fun I must admit they were all a great bunch of lads. I think you should really consider about talking to them again. You once said to me that he was the only one who knew what you were always talking about if you had problems with me or anything else he was there to help you out. You too were my favourite site to see, when you guys hung out just to see you happy and mucking around like boys do. It kills me that you are no longer mates over something so stupid "a girl" really you should of think about it more on what you have lost. You can always have girlfriends or whatever but you can only have one good set of mates and I think you have lost the best set of mates you could of even imagined  for. They were all so funny and amazing to hang with. It's simple they made you happy and you lost them. The only person I can blame in this time is me. It was stupid for you to choose the "girl"over them I don't get it and I think you guys should be all together again. It's just as simple as that.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Five years and yet still best-friends i will never ever trade you for anything.

time after time

You once said to me, you missed me, the other time you said you cried about me that, that I wasn't spending time with you. Yes I admit this was selfish for me to put you threw that. I have come to see  that I was very wrong when they do it to you. I didn't expect to have to knock on your sisters window to let me in. I didn't expect to have to tell your aunty and her partner why you weren't there to walk home or you to be in your room in bed like you said you would. I got him to pick me up because I was so upset from it all then when I got to his house you finally got a text  from you saying your at the bloody mount. There is so much more I want to say to you, but if I do that it will turn in to the stupidest fight and not being friends out of it. So from now on from that even happening to me again I've decided not to go to parties or drinks with you. I don't know what to say anymore. Sorry.

You there

You are always there to catch me when I'm falling, when ever I'm in trouble or when I'm alone. You are there for me no matter what and i love how you care for me so much as i care for you too. Your one amazing guy, your funny and easy to talk to and no matter what I have to say you are always listening with good intentions. Honestly i haven't come across someone so great in my 17 years of living. Being in your presence just makes life so much better and easier. How could i have you in my life and i could still fuck things up with you about almost every time i tell you shit that you don't need to hear. I'm so sorry that this seems to happen but i guess still recovering from my other bad relationship but i don't no but all i can can is sorry! but i PROMISE! to never ever do it again Your always going to be my prince and shinning armer :) to always catch me when i fall. I love you.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


What am I talking about I don't fucking miss you, all you ever did to me was hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me! Your a cunt and ill always hate you for what you did to me. Yesterday I thought I missed you but then I got thinking to myself what the fuck am I thinking honestly I hated my self for even thinking that. for fuck sakes this is sick of me to even think that ha! bloody hell!!. I can't belive I let this go on for almost two years how fucking stupid am I hahaha, all I can do now is laugh at you and look how pathtic you are and your mates. ha good luck in life doesn't look like your going to go far at all! and I have to say to you is I hope I never ever get to see you face ever again!!!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Things change

The way you used to clinch up your face when i tickled you, When you called me angel, when your mom and dad called me angel, the way they always had wide open arms hugging and loving family you had i loved everything about them, they were always so amazing. When we first met you were so funny and i fell in love with you straight away, Then you mailed me on bebo after i saw in at the plaza, saying hey you, then we got talking and talking and we could just forever it was amazing, then you said let me ring you, i was so nervous and i didn't no what i would say or if i would sound like a dick, we talked for two hours straight about everything and anything, movies and what we liked what our favorite colors were. I miss spending time with you miss watching you play football and almost about every-time start a fight. Yes we had so many problems but we always used to sort it out even thou i still knew you were doing the wrong every-time, every-time i caught you out you always seemed to have it figured out and know what to say and i would forget about it but in my gut i knew something was up but i decided to only try see the good. For the first  six months we were going out were the best time of my life your were incredible. all I'm saying is i miss you so much every time i saw you i wanted to be with you and go home with you and spend time with you like i did every time we were together. But all thats now changed hasn't it, your doing drugs drinking more than you should be when you know its so bad for you it scares me to think were you are now, but i hope you know that I'm always thinking of you and wondering what your doing. i miss you.

Monday, March 7, 2011

So What.

So what if you’re younger than me, so what people say, fuck them is all I say. You’re amazing you are. you make me feel that I can trust you so that’s a biggie for me, to trust you, yes I have been out a bad relationship and I take it out on you in how i sometimes don't trust you and that you wont cheat on me, but you promised me something and you kept to it. You’re one in a million and I have you and im never ever letting you go, your my angel you really are, yes we have little tiny arguments about something we think completely different about but after five minutes were tackling each other over and tackling until one of us peaces it, but there's you have to get the last tackling or punch in don't yah. But that’s what I love about you. We do lots of things together go for walks, drives, picnics, talk about anything to each other even if it is the most embarrassing thing, but were there for one another, I don't no what id do with out you, your making my life so much easier for me baby, so what lets take this life together your amazing I love you!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Im so proud of you.

For when i was growing up, and you were working and come to think of it, it wasn't the best job ever but you choose to do it so you would be home when i got home from school and spend more time together, when i was sick you would always take me with you. And i watched you clean up stairs down stairs it looks so boring and i was thinking to my self you have so much more potential than cleaning house for a living. Then your back seemed to get worse every time you cleaned and it hurt me to see you hurt, it didn't seem fair on you and it took almost forever to get it fixed and still to this day its still not right. Then one day you were getting your hair cut from Susan and she was telling you about this place in Bethlehem that this jewelry shop, so mom went in for an interview and she looked at mom up and down and said yes you got the job. Now i look at mom and she is so much more happier and when i go to her work and wait outside the back were they make the jewelry i look at her and I'm so proud of her of what she has done for her boss and that she is so happy of her new job, mom your my hero my inspiration your the worlds best mommy. I love you!

Your amazing.

From the day we first meet i asked to hang out with you, and you looked at me and had a sorta funny look on your face and you said sure thing. okay i have to admit it was very awkward at the start then we got talking and we had a lot of things in common, the same interests on guys same hair dues and everything. You ask me one day while at school if i would like to come stay at yours it was a Friday. When i first got to your house and i looked around in shock to see how bloody big the place was it was amazing then you said your room is down stairs and that was big too it was great. We were laying on your bed and there was a fly on your roof and i closed one eye and pretended to ping it off your roof and you just laugh for so long and hard it was really fun then we decided to take pictures oh my god how we looked like dicks back in the days, then we edit them, then you decide to make them into playboy magazines so much fun we had! Everyone said we looked like twins with the same type of hair we had and we just got on so well.
i miss those days when we were so young and knew nothing of the other world out there that we are now doing today. If i had to choose my best memory it would have to be that, the first time i stayed at your place. your amazing  Hollie Oneill.